Monday, October 11, 2010
Take Two Granddaughters and Call Me in the Morning....
I haven't been posting because I've been in a deep funk....life continues to throw me curve balls....and I've let a few of them hit me in the head! I am certain that there are so many lessons and messages that I need to learn and to hear...my doctor has changed my medication, which will result in my having a few weird days until I adjust to it. but then I expect that I will view the playing field as leveled out once again...I'm looking forward to being better able to roll with the punches....still no jobs in sight...in the field of education or anything else, for that matter...I had taken the training course required to become a literacy tutor for the public library system.....got my first student two weeks ago....and he has not returned my telephone calls...I'm beginning to be able to laugh about how all of the doors that lead to me being able to teaach...following my dream by quitting my job and going to school full time....are just not opening for me...no takers in Korea...no takers in the California educational system for any internship positions, or any position for that matter....I've recently discovered a blog new to me-Happy, Joyous and Free...she is dealing with some similar issues, and I am drawing on the strength and wisdom of her sharing...in particular, her comment on "faith it til you make it" resonated within me....so I am taking baby steps, working myself out of a pit of anxiety and despair, and believing that the answers will come when I am ready for them. In the meantime, I had the joy of taking care of my two granddaughters in San Diego for a few days last week while my daughter attended a conference...exhausting, yes, but totally fulfilling...it felt good to have a sense of purpose! One step, one day at a time, I believe that this season of my life will pass, and that the experience will have enriched me and helped me to grow in ways that right now I am blind to. I just hope that this season ends soon! ox
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Oh my gosh, Saranne, they are cute as little buttons! Isn't it too bad you can't get paid just being a grandma to those little girls?
ReplyDeleteSomething will come up. It's got to happen at just the right time. I'm also believing the same for myself. Not easy for sure.
I'm going to check out the blog link. Maybe her wisdom will also be an encouragement to me. Hang in there!
Oh honey, what a delight, they are just precious.
ReplyDeleteI've been MIA also and life has been such a blur I don't know who I've told what.
I just returned from Brownsville Tx. where I was able to spend some time with my Daddy who lost his three decade battle from Leukemia Wednesday evening. I have no energy and am just chasin' my tail, so to speak.
You take care and I know God has something out there that is gonna be well worth the wait. It's just that waitin' part that drive us mortals nuts!!! :o)
God bless you and have yourself a glorious day. Know I'm holdin' you up in prayer for the perfect position.
Your granddaughters are so cute!! Have you tried being a sub. teacher. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteI wonder what the world has in store for you. Waiting is very hard.
ReplyDeleteI smiled just looking at your sweet grandkids' faces, I can only imagine how fun it must have been to hear their laughter and sweet voices too.
ReplyDelete"Faith it til you make it" is good! I'm praying something opens up for you VERY SOON. To be a teacher is such a great gift to children. I hope the perfect job is just around the corner for you.
I really like that you hold on tight to your belief that it will all turn out in the end. Perhaps the ones you're teaching are us.
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
Carolynn
Saranne, thank you for clicking the follow button on my blog, which led me to you here. Oh, how I understand that anxiety that attends all things as yet unresolved. It is really hard waiting for things to unfold, but it seems to me you've taken the actions that will lead to something very fulfilling soon, even if not what you envisioned. How exciting to decide on a new path and then just strike out on it! Such courage and faith. It will be rewarded. I'm looking forward to coming back here and reading some more. In the meantime, it's so lovely to meet you here.
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