Thursday, November 11, 2010

Never Give Up....



has become my mantra.....Emma taught me this when she was two years old, and had been put down for her nap....when my daughter checked on her, Emma was lying in bed, wide awake and chanting "Never give up....never give up!"  I have been chanting this on a regular basis myself over the past six months!  `Many days, I have given in to the feelings of anxiety, fear and despair over not being able to find a job.  But many more days have found me chanting!  In my heart, I know that my inability to find a job has nothing to do with me, and everything to do with the economy.....but it's difficult to block out the negative thoughts that tell me my success in the past was just a fluke, or that I'll never work again...that's where my mantra comes in.  I am choosing to view this time in my life as a growing period...and believe me, I'm stretching!  I've become willing to consider and to apply for many different types of employment....willing to change locations....willing to give up the known for the unknown.  I never thought that I would be in this place at my age, but the fact is, I am.  I know that I am not alone in this.  And I do have a choice....I can view this as the worst thing that has ever happened to me, or I can "faith it 'till I make it" , whatever that looks like.  Viewed with faith, my future looks bright even though I have no clear picture of what it will be like...kind of exciting...an adventure!  In the meantime, I am keeping busy not only looking for employment, but also taking the time to notice and to feel all the good that life has to offer.  I am living my life, job or no job, and it feels good!  Thank you, Emma, for teaching me this most important lesson!