Tuesday, December 29, 2009

They're Gone.....

I woke up this morning all on my own....no thundering of little feet down the wood-floored hallway toward my room accompanied by a voice calling "Grammy, are you awake"?

It's been a wonderful Christmas....different than years past, because I have changed...and that is SUCH a good thing! I'm not saying that I didn't struggle...because I did...and shed tears in mourning what had been in the past.....BUT, in letting go of what had been, I was able to embrace what will be....and my heart is full.

Christmas Eve was difficult.....I wanted to have everyone here with ME....so I cried, and then hightailed it to church for a fabulous candlelight service......to a church new to me, but I had been invited by a fellow (20 year-old) classmate who has the voice of an angel.....and I thought of the angels singing when our Lord was born.....and I sang Him the Happy Birthday song that my Dad and I had sung together on Christmas Eve for so many years....I was so blessed!

Christmas morning began with tears again.....no one was here to share it with me....and I struggled with the waiting until my family arrived.....and it was good.  AND, I decided to go to David's family for dinner that evening....I made Martha Stewart's macaroni & cheese.....they all loved it, and I totally enjoyed myself!  There's something to be said about being a guest rather than a hostess!  I could get used to this...

Boxing Day was fabulous....I had my nearest and dearest here for dinner...and I kept it simple.....good food, good friends, lots of laughs!  I got to have my granddaughters for the next evening and day...along with the 14-week old puppy!  We all piled into my bed for a reading party...puppy included....chaos reigned supreme, but a good time was had by all....

Everyone left yesterday afternoon.....it was a bittersweet moment for me....times have changed....I have changed.....and the time together was ENOUGH....I am older and slower, but also older and wiser.... I am in the process of cleaning up from the debris and detrius left from my family's visit.....AND, I woke up this morning to find two raisins left over from our reading party stuck on the side of my face!


  1. What a beautiful post. "I have changed" I love it...you are embracing the change and being honest about the struggles. Most of us need to hear this..and embrace the changes in our own lives whether they are related to Christmas or other things!
    Blessings and hugs,

  2. Tell yourself that "Change is good". That was one thing that I reminded myself of, often. Andrea is right...embrace it although it can be difficult.

    Boxing Day sounded like so much fun!

    I had a wonderful Christmas with the family. I plan to post some of the handmade gifts.

  3. Oh I know change is difficult but it can be a good thing. Your reading party sounded wonderful as did your Christmas night. So glad you made it through and even was able to enjoy the good times........:-) Hugs

  4. My heart leaps for you as you accept that different can be good and you had a wonderful Christmastime with your precious family.

    Have a very wonderful New Year!!!

    God bless you my friend :o)

  5. I can just picture the reading party in your bed and how fun it must have been! Parties in bed are the best. :)

    Have a blessed 2010.

  6. Thank you for your prayers and support. GOD BLESS YOU!! andrea